Confessions of the real me!

Confession No. 1 : SELOSA
              To be honest...I am the no. 1 carrier of the word "SELOS" .

Confession No. 2: I HATE BEING CLINGY
              I'm an independent person..maybe that's also the reason why i hate guys who are clingy! just do your    thing! Never put your world around your partner! In the first place she's never your world but just a part of it!

I will feel this way!

How would you feel if you see your "boo" leaving lots of messages for everybody in fb except you? How would you feel if you waited for him for 4 hours from 10 PM to 2 AM just to talk to him but he was never on line in YM? Because all the while he's in fb giving messages to everyone except you! Pathetic right! A total waste of time! No need to wait... no need to spend waking hours every night! A totally stupid move!!! CRAP! I felt that way!

alone...

Have u ever felt so alone and so lonely??? every time i feel this thingy.. i just wanna burst my tears out! Besides, that's all i can do...nothing else but just cry! I have always been there for everyone but no one has been with me even in my most needed time. 

Nakakasawa din na palagi na lang ikaw ang nagmamahal, nag-aalaga, at nagbibigay.  This has been my role ever since.  After a while, I've realized that I have to put a stop on this and start thinking of myself just for once.  I told myself.."Gusto ko ako naman ang mahalin at alagaan...sana ako naman ang bigyan!" I promised myself that things won't be the same again.  But no matter what I do I still end up loving more and giving more.  Kaya nga ba sa huli ako pa din ang umiiyak coz I'm being used to their advantage.  USERS ARE USERS... they take advantage of every inch...every detail.  Ako naman, I let them take advantage of me! Kasi akala ko by giving them so much love and attention...I can turn them to angels.  But the thing is...nothing is possible for deadly devil users! 

With all these, the end starts with the move to WATCH OUT! 

Don't give much but give enough!

Maybe it's really you!

It's been a long search! so many trials and no ending maybes!But I guess it should end here...i found you and nothing should I ask for anymore! The only question is that...would you feel the same way? 

No matter what would be your answer, it is still me who would decide in the end... if it's you or not!  for now, I want to be positive and hopefully it's really you! All i want is for you to be my lyf forever!

When can I say ur mine?

Can somebody just tell me when can i say that the one i love is mine?  i have tried asking that so many times to so many people but no one was able to answer me so sure enough for me to be convinced of what they said.  But after a while, I also answered my own question. 

The truth is... it will never happen.... No matter how long or valuable u have been in your relationship u can never have him and tell that he's yours and the other way around!Simply because no one actually becomes a property of the other when u become committed as partners.  You both have your own personal space to consider... privacy to respect and and own personality to defend.  When you are in a relationship one should learn to be independent of his/her partner and at the same time be dependent in the relationship at one point or another. 

Just make sure that you don't loose yourself and identity as you enter in a relationship. Each of you should grow as individuals and as partners.  You are never a property of your partner and never will happen that he/she will be yours...

When to reveal the true you?

We always have the side of us which we hide from the people we meet,,, people who we think are not trustworthy enough to know the true you. But come to think of it,,, you yourself have a lot of apprehension and doubts to reveal yourself to them simply because we are afraid that we might get rejected.  We show them the likeable side and we give them what we just wanted them to know.  The not so good thing about it is that when we start to love that person more than we expected, we could not go out of our shells and show the real person behind that facade.  The big question comes in... when is the right time to reveal the true you?

The right time is always the first time.... the first time you met the person... the first time you talk...the first time you like the person... the first time you feel there's more than liking him.  Revealing the true you is not an easy thing and it should go on stages.  Every time things are getting tougher, harder and complicated, the more you need to show your soul deeper and deeper.  This would also mean accepting the reality that as you expose your soul the greater the possibility that you become unlikeable.  But it would be a test of true friendship, love and acceptance.  People who will accept you more than the stains in your soul and the scars of the past are the ones worthy of the true you!

no hits!

it's really hard to think that someone has fallen for you but when you start falling for that person he'll just disappear as if nothing happened! You just thought you miss each other but it' s only you who is actually missing him! NO HITS AT ALL! It's really hard to assume....to say that this is mine..without you actually holding it...to say he's the one, when he's not actually saying he is! Be sure its a HIT not just him hitting on you!

sorrow...

A lot of times we are faced with so many challenges... and most of the time we fail to surpass all these challenges! We make our own choices but not necessarily these are the right ones.  In my case... i make my choices everyday, every hour, every minute in all the challenges i face in my life! But even if  i think about that choice a hundred folds... i still end up failing!