Another chance in fate!

we are always given the chance to make things happen for us... no matter how many times we are challenged in life... the number of times we should stand and decide to try again should be more than the number of times we failed. 

i am not sure right now if i will fail once more...

can somebody just give me a sign that i'm making the right decision?

i'm really afraid to make my heart be open to love again... but time and again I guess it will be the only way for me to move on and face another chance of fate.

"Life is short. So don't hold back. Forgive like you have amnesia. Believe like a kid. Love like crazy. And never regret anything that made you happy."

How do you know it's over???

There's no exact answer to this question, but I guess it will only be over if you have decided it is.  Staying in love is a decision that you have to make.  Just like any ordinary day when you decide the type of emotion you wanted to wear the whole day... you also have to decide if you want to wake up and stay the whole day still in love with the person you are with.  If you then decide to stop working things out... the only way to make it at least easier for both of you is to not prolong the agony!

If you want things differently, do not make your partner believe otherwise.  "There's no easy way to break somebody's heart"  ... as the songs says! It's really true that there is no easy way to break up with someone.  Pain is always there but despite the pain respect should still be granted.  Respect to make things less painful and desperate.  Respect to make that person still believe in the magic of love and eventually still be able to love again despite the pain you have caused her. 

It should be now or never!!!

What is your favorite color?

PERSONALITIES BASED ON YOUR FAVORITE COLOR!

Red
What it represents: Ah, the color of passion, anger and high blood pressure. Red is a primal color. It represents primal urges, like lust (“I must have you now!”) and fury (you know the phrase “seeing red,” right?). Yes, red is a commanding color: think of how stop signs get you to halt in your tracks and how you stand back when a red fire engine goes whizzing by.


Understanding people who love it: They act — sometimes without thinking — on immediate desires. In fact, they’re usually the poster children for immediate gratification. It’s up to you if you go for it... or proceed with caution.

Orange
What it represents: OK, orange is not exactly the easiest color to wear and it’s not the most common favorite color, but guess what? Orange is as sensual as it gets. Orange is a mellowed red — and it takes primal, lusty urges and mellows them with a softer vibe. Orange is the color of early attractions, emotional responses, and inner magnetism. Oh, and one other thing: orange is also close to gold, the color of success and wealth.

Understanding people who love it: Someone who likes orange is alive with feelings, the ability to nurture, and can intuit a path to success. If your favorite color is orange, you don’t have an “off” switch when it comes to passion. This is all good stuff, but there’s nothing casual about the connections this kind of person usually forges.

Yellow
What it represents: Yellow is the color of the sun, vitality, power and ego... but it’s not a great indicator of romance. Watch out for self-centered, “me first” energy when someone prefers yellow to the rest of the rainbow.

Understanding people who love it: If yellow is your favorite color, temper your use of the word “I” when you’re interested in someone else. You can come across as too ego-centric otherwise. Now, if you’re dating someone whose favorite hue is yellow, make sure to jump in and share stories about yourself, since this person may not give you much room.

Green
What it represents: Here is the heart of the matter: green is the color of love. (It’s no coincidence that we make our money in the same color...) Green is the color of life and abundance — leaves, grass, plants — it’s all about growing, expanding, and living. So why don’t we give ferns instead of roses on Valentine’s Day? Because green is about expansive, humanistic love and acceptance, not bodice-ripping romance. What’s more, green is a nice-person color, a “do-gooder, be-gooder” kind of color. This person has a warm heart. Passion is probably in there somewhere, buried under their integrity and honor.

Understanding people who love it: If you love green, you put the greater good before your own good — but try a little selfish behavior once in a while.

Blue
What it represents: Blue is a color of clarity, communications and charm. And regardless of the shade, this hue says: “I like to be understood.” On the downside, under stress, a “blue” person can send mixed messages, have trouble making up their mind, or just space out during conversations.

Understanding people who love it: If blue is your favorite color, you never run out of anything to say — expression is your strong suit. And if you’re dating a “blue” person? The same holds true; you should always know where you stand.

Purple
What it represents: Purple evokes the energy of illusion, imagination and fantasy. Or should we say purrrrple? Purple tends to inspire coyness, romance, flirtation and teasing — it builds anticipation with a dash of playfulness. The downside of purple is unrealistic expectations. Is it easier to live in your fantasy world than the real world? Some purple-lovers prefer it.

Understanding people who love it: If you love purple, you can be an imaginative romantic or prefer imaginary romance, depending on how you feel.

White
What it represents: White is light — the combination of all colors. White symbolizes purity (the traditional bridal dress, the christening gown) and spirituality. There’s a simplicity to it, too.

Understanding people who love it: People who love white are probably clean and orderly. While white isn’t the sexiest color, it is certainly healthy.

Black
What it represents: Like white, black is a combination of all colors, but instead of purity, it represents the unknown, the unseen — mystery. Black basically holds back information... but there’s no denying that it has strong associations in our culture with “the dark side” and evil.

Understanding people who love it: If your favorite color is black, you are more hush-hush than high-strung in nature. The silence of this color lets others fill in the blanks. Black says, “I’m not telling you anything.” People who love black can be tough nuts to crack, but quite possibly worth the effort.

Consequences!

My feelings and emotions drive me to make my everyday decisions... This is me!Though this is not what I wanted to be me!

I met a guy who at first I thought would just be my best friend! It started with just a yes click and a match me and we ended up to be friends.  I was upset then by the so many uncontrollable things happening in my life and it seems everything is not just falling into place.  He gave me a couple of advices to keep me running and we just exchanged unending messages till we realized we're starting to fall for each other.  An unbelievable day which I thought would just end right there and then.  But those days were followed by non-stop messages and phone calls.... sounding smiles and laughter every time we hear each other's voice.  My world stops every time I receive a message from him and my heart beats really fast when I hear his voice.  It's amazing how he always make my day right and easy.  My life for that moment is just because of him.

Everyday seems to unfold a different story every time i think about the CONSEQUENCES of all these.  Yes, things are a bit complicated and everyday is always a challenge.  Everything seems to get more difficult every time we love each other more... everyday is a pot of tears every time I think of the times he's not with me... everyday is hell every time I can't be with him and everyday is lifeless without him.  All these I know is the consequence of what I have chosen to do.  A choice that I never thought would put me into so much pain and distress. 

Believe me... pain is useless every time I hear him say how much he wants to take care of me and love me. His words are just soothing to my ears and it makes me want to try more... it makes me wanna bear the pain more... all because I love him so much and the love is just incomparable with the pain I feel within. 

But how much time would I still need, to bear the consequences of being just the second best??? How much more would I need to bear to make things right! 

Shall the CONSEQUENCES persist???

I thought it's you!!!

I built my dreams wih you and made you my whole world! I thought happiness will never end but what is lasting is the pain... until now I'm still hurting and i never realized that things would hurt this much! You are the last person I thought would never want to see me cry but you're the first person who enjoys seeing me this sad. 

I hope this will help me be stronger than ever... the more pain I feel the better person i become! I don't want to force myself anymore... all i asked is to be happy but it's the biggest wish that I guess will be the hardest to achieve!

Long and Lasting Love

A Long and Lasting Love

A long and lasting love
Not many people find it
But those who do
Their whole life through
Put their heart and soul behind it
A long and lasting love

A long and lasting love
Is what I always dreamed of
And when I look into your eyes
I knew I'd really seen love
A long and lasting love

Now that you're in my life
I'm gonna make you stay
I have to be some kind of crazy fool
To let you get away
Now that you're in my life
I'm gonna make you stay
I have to be some kind of crazy fool
To let you get away

A long and lasting love
We share for many reasons
A special bond that goes beyond
The changing of the seasons
A long and lasting love

A long and lasting love
Someone I can care for
Someone to be there
For the rest of my life
A long and lasting love
 

This is one of the timeless songs I always adore.  All of us are dreaming to have a long and lasting love.  A love that is immeasurable and endless.  Not all people are able to find one, not even experience it once.  As I start to ponder, I realized that there is no such thing as a long and lasting love.  As we mature in a relationship, love is just a factor that stays at one corner of our hearts but what stays lasting is the passion for companionship and trust that is built out of the love you have shared for many years.  As we grow old the passion in love will not anymore exist... no such thing as keeping the fire burning.  There are changes...a lot of changes which will lead to a different path and role to take for each one.  

For the past days... a lot of things happened in my life.  From all these, one thing very important came to my mind.  That is how important life is! We can never know how long we are staying in this world.  Tomorrow might not be another day for you but if you are able to make the most of your life and you are able to leave a footprint in the hearts of those people who are important to you... you don't have to worry! Because at the end of the day the lasting love will mark your existence to the hearts of the people u touched.  

Everyday is a matter of choice and today I made a choice to be happy and make the most of everything I have. To say I love you to the most important people who have completed my existence and leave a long and lasting love, joy, trust and patience that will surely mark my endless existence.  

As far as I know, I have served my life to the fullest! And even if today will be the last day of my life, the day when I have to close my eyes and say hello to to the unending light of grace, I will surely face our Creator with a long and lasting love i have received from the people I have shared my life with! 

To all of you, I love you! To my angel and my bhe I love both of you! And forever I will! And if i have one wish, i will ask for more years of happiness being with both of you!  I WISH I COULD SPEND MORE LASTING LOVE WITH YOU!

IT'S YOU!!!

We always say these words every time we meet a person we thought will be our lifetime partner...I would have to admit that I have mentioned this several times already....not because I'm afraid I may not have enough time to look for a partner but because I always wanted my guy to be the last and hopefully be my lifetime partner. 

It's been a while since I last visited my blogs...only because I was really down and hurt the past few months! I was so in love then.... madly, deeply in love with him! I thought he's gonna be my lyf forever.  but i guess it would just remain a thought! A thought that will vanish and will never be remembered.  It was really hard to accept that there are people in this world who does not know how to value and appreciate goodness! I was left by my so called lyf just because he thought he is so much less for me and I'm so perfect to be with her.  A reason beyond compare.... a reason which is incomparable and yet unacceptable.  I was left alone...all alone!

I was alone not until the time he said hi!  I never thought he would change my world at a snap of a finger.  I know things don't change overnight, but this one is different.  It seems magic! He is heaven sent! We had a few exchange of messages...telling stories of our past and trying to find comfort with each other.  He is a very good listener and a perfect a gentleman.  He knows when to say yes and no... he knows how to make me smile and what would make me happy. We stayed in front of our computers for more than 8 hours...with all the stories, sorrows and laughter.  Eventually we came to a point that  WE ALREADY LIKED EACH OTHER...but we have to live for the fact that we are separated by distance and this becomes a dilemma for the both of us.  But then...after a while ...just like magic... it did not hinder us to become closer and more in love.  We both know how to please each other...how to make each other feel better and most of all we know that each of us is our own happiness and that the presence of one in our hearts would be enough to put a smile on our face every time we start and end the day. 

I love him for being so sweet and extra caring...for being so understanding and lovable but most of all i love him for all his flaws and imperfections.  No matter what face i see... what matters is his heart that fills my heart with gladness.  His radiant goodness speaks much of him as a person and as a partner. 

Things are not easy as it seems...i know there will be more challenges along the way which we both have to face.  But no matter how big it is... i know we can make it.  Together we will cross the finish line and continue to love and care for each other. 

Thank you bhe... thank you for saving me in sorrow and accepting me the way I am and what I have.  You deserve to be happy and i will make sure I'll be an instrument of that happiness! I love you with all my heart.   IT'S YOU NOW AND HOPEFULLY FOREVER!