Isang Daang Dahilan Kung Bakit Mahal Kitang Kamote Ka!

Sabi nila ang totoong pagmamahal daw ay walang dahilan...yung hindi mo alam kung anong sasabihin mo kapag tinanong ka kung bakit mo sya mahal.... siguro nga! Pero para sakin kaya mo lang hindi masabi o hindi matumbok ang dahilan ay dahil sa sobrang daming dahilan kung bakit mo sya mahal! Dahil mahal mo siya ng buong-buo...yung mahal mo siya di lang sa magaganda nyang katangian kung hindi pati sa mga hindi mo masyadong gustong ugali nya... yun ang pagmamahal. Mahal mo ng buo at mahal mo ng totoo!

Nung una ako tinanong ng bestfriend ko kung bakit mahal ko si Mote ko...hindi ako makasagot.  Ang hirap mag-isip...hindi dahil wala kang maisip kung di dahil sa sobrang daming dahilan kung bakit ko sya mahal, hindi ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko.

Dahil dyan...nag-ubos talaga ko ng oras isipin ang isaang daang dahilan kung bakit mahal na mahal ko ang Mote ko..

  MAHAL KO SI MOTE KO KASI....

1. super lambing nya

2. makulit sya...sobra

3. maarte sya...mas maarte pa sakin!

4. ayaw nya magpakiss pag mabaho sya

5. manginginom sya...pag nayaya lang naman

6. sobrang bait

7. hindi marunong tumanggi

8. sobrang mapagmahal sa magulang

9. sobrang mapagmahal sa mga kapatid 

10. sobrang mapagmahal sa pamangkin

11. mabuting kaibigan 

12. tagal maka get-over

13. sobrang appreciative sa lahat ng bagay

14. numero unong bolero

15. madalas mayabang sya

16. feeling gwapo

17. feeling macho

18. feeling habulin ng chicks

19. habulin naman sya e... ng bading nga lang

20. mahilig sya umutot

21. super cute nya sa umaga kasi wala na syang mata 

22. ang higpit nya yumakap

23. lagi nya ko kinikiss

24. nirerape nya lagi yung face ko sa unan

25. ang lakas nya kumain 

26.  gusto nya lagi ka malapit lang sa kanya

27. proud sya sakin 

28. lagi nya ipapalala sayo kung gano ka nya kamahal

29. nakakatakot sya pag lasing 

30. nawawala lagi sa sarili pag masaya sya.... pag masaya nga lang ba? hehehe

31. he calls me mote

32. he calls me wifey

33. he calls me angel kahit mali-mali ang text.... 

34. laging wrong send...lalo na kay tita

35. isa syang taong punong puno ng respeto

36. marunong syang magtiwala

37. mahal na mahal nya ko! tama ba?

38. ang tagal nya maligo sobra!

39. kinakantahan nya ko 

40. binabantayan nya ko matulog at hinihintay nya ko maghilik! hahahha!

41. puro white ang brief nya at isa lang ang tatak

41. feeling nya virgin pa sya! hahahah!

42. gentleman sya

43. tumitingin sya sa iba...sa iabang lalaki! heheheh

44. ako lang ang tinititigan nya

45. ako lang ang pantasya nya...sabi nya yun!

46. mabagal sya kumain

47. ang likot nya sa remote

48. lumusong sya sa baha para sa POEA and on the side para sakin 

49. nakatalukbong sya matulog

50. tinulugan nya ko habang nanonood ako ng letters to juliet

51. ang tagal nya ko pinaghintay sa SM

52. inintay nya ko sa alabang nung sya naman ang nauna sakin 

53. lagi nya ko inaakbayan

54. ayaw nya i let go ang kamay ko pag kasama nya ko

55. pinanggigigilan nya ko lagi

56. inaaway nya ko minsan 

57. dati 99% lang nya ko love

58. ngayon 100% na daw nya ko love

59. napaka galang tao

60. kuntento na sya sakin 

61. he wants to grow old with me 

62. kasama ko sa mga pangarap nya

63. lagi syang may oras para sakin at sa eat bulaga

64. mahilig sya manood ng movie

65. pareho kame ng gustong show sa tv

66. pareho kame mahilig sa music

67. marami kameng pagkakatulad

68. marami din kame pagkakaiba

69. simple lang syang tao

70. hindi sya masyado marunong magluto

71. lagi sya humaharap sa salamin para iconvince ang sarili nyang gwapo sya

72. hindi sya nagsusuklay pagkagising nya

73. kinikiss nya ko kahit may panis na laway pa sya

74. niyayakap nya ko kahit may muta pa sya....heheheh

75. gusto nya ko isama sa knila

76. inilalapit nya ko sa pamilya nya

77. handa sya sumugal para sakin 

78. nakita ko sya kung pano sya kinabahan nung una nya ko makita

79. lagi nya ko tinititigan

80. alam kong gustong gusto nya ko

81. gusto nya na inaasikaso ko sya

82. tinatawagan nya ko lagi

83. gumigising sya pag tinatawagan ko sya

84. hindi sya nagpapatalo

85. smart sya

86. very sensible

87. walang boring moment kapag sya ang kasama mo

88. hanep pumick up line

89. very supportive

90. seloso pero ayaw pahalata

91. tinataboy ako noon pero ayaw ko :(

92. forgiving na tao

93. may takot sa Dyos

94. mapagbigay 

95. marunong makuntento sa kung anong meron sya

96. matyaga sa buhay

97. marunong umintindi 

98. matiisin sa lahat ng bagay

99.  marunong bumangon kapag nadapa at di nawawalan ng pag-asa

100. higit sa lahat sya ay isang DAKILANG ADIK!

Sobrang madami pang dahilan kapag inisa-isa ko pa..kulang pa ang magsama kame habnag buhay! alam kong sa pagdaan ng panahon...mas marami pa ko malalaman tungkol sa kanya at mas mamahalin ko pa sya ng higit pa dahil sa mga bagay na yun..

dahil dalwang buwan na tayong nagtitiis sa isat-isa...dalawang beses lang din kita gusto mahalin... NGAYON AT KAILANMAN!

 

Fearful Destiny!

This day was a revelation for me...

             the very first time I felt so afraid about my destiny.....
             the very first time I felt I can't do anything but wait....
             the very first time I said to myself that "this is just the start"....

 I knew that this would really happen...but I never thought that I would really felt this sad about everything! 

This is the start of the so many challenges that would come our way.  Challenges that at first would test our relationship...challenges that I hope can make us love and take care of each other even more.

I am really afraid not because I cannot commit... I am so afraid not because he's too far... I am so afraid not because he will look for someone else...

I am fearful that time will come that destiny will not be for the both of us. I can't help but cry... cry so hard because I felt helpless!

I want to take care of him and make sure that everyday will be the happiest exciting day he can have with me.  I want to love him more than anyone else can love him and I want to make him choose to love me every minute of everyday.   But this time, I felt that praying  is my only option... pray that time will come that I will no longer hope to be with him but I will really be destined to love and take care of him forever.

No one knows how much I love you... and will always truly love you the way I know how to.  And forever I will wait and fight for this feeling.  Someday I will no longer be fearful, but instead I will be fearless because I will be yours forever and you will be mine eternally.

I will make sure we will be destined to be together!

HANDA KA NA BANG SUMUGAL?

HANDA KA NA BANG SUMUGAL?

Lahat ng tao sa mundo ay naghahanap ng pagkakataong makahanap ng mamahalin at ng taong magmamahal sa kanila ng lubos at buong-buo.  Sabi nila, ang buhay ay parang isang malaking Quiapo... maraming magnanakaw at snatchers...kailngan ay matuto kang makipagagawan at makipaglaban.  Kailngang marunong kang maghanap ng taong pagkakatiwalaan at handa kang sumugal ng buhay sa buhay.  

Noon pa man ay matibay na ang aking paniniwala na wala ng lalaki sa mundo na handang sumugal at magpatalo sa ngalan ng pag-ibig.  Yung tipong handang isuko ang lahat para sa taong minamahal, yung handang tanggapin ang lahat ng sasabhin ng iba...mapatunayan lang na mahal ka nya, yung tipong di iindahin na matawag syang tanga basta alam nyang nagmamahal sya.  

Ang alam ko lang wala ng lalaki sa kasalukuyang panahon ang gustong sumunod sa yapak ni Rizal, na handang magpaka martyr at magpabaril sa Bagongbayan.  Ang alam ko lang, wala ng lalaking handang sumugal para lang sa pagmamahal.  

NAGKAMALI AKO... kinailangan ko makilala ang isang taong nagpabago ng aking paniniwala upang mapatunayan na may mga makabagong Rizal na hanggang ngayn ay nanatili pa.  Isang taong tuluyang nag bago ng aking buhay, paniniwala at kapalaran. 

Sa pagkakataong ito... ako na ang nagtanong sa aking sarili... 

HANDA NA BA AKONG SUMUGAL?

KELAN NGA BA KAILANGAN SUMUGAL?

Ang sagot.... walang tamang panahon at pagkakataon.  Ang pagsugal ay walang pinipili at walang pinapanigan.  Ang pagsugal ay nagsisismula sa pagkakataon na ang isang tao ay nagdesisyong magmahal.  Wala naman kasing sigurado pag nagmahal ka.... hindi mo sigurado kung ,mananalo ka o matatalo.  Ang alam ko lang, ang importante sa pagmamahal ay ibinigay mo lahat... lahat lahat na parang wala ng bukas! Magmahal ng todo-todo na parang walang preno.  Ung tipong kahit mabigo ka, walang halong pagsisisi dahil hindi ka sumugal.  Alam mo na sa huli nagmahal ka lang at ano man ang iyong pinatalo sa sugal na pinasok mo ay maipagmamalaki mo pa ding hindi ka nagkulang at ginawa mo ang lahat.  

Dahil diyan buong tapang kong sasabihin na kaya kong sumugal... tumaya at magpatalo kung kailngan para minsan man lang sa panahong iniliaan ko para sa iba ay naging masaya ko at nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong magmahal.  Isang pagsugal na handa akong makipag- laban at makipag-agawan  hanggang sa huli, at sisiguruhin kong ipapanalo ko ito ano't ano man ang mangyari.

 

My one and only best right choice

My one and only best right choice...my baby!

 I already gave up believing that fairy tales are true...I already gave up aspiring that my prince will come soon...and most of all, I already gave up dreaming that there is still a happy ending!  

I've been through a lot and I would not want to fight the same battle over and over again.  But I never realized that my quest for happiness was never over until I found the only best right choice I've had in my life.  

My confession...

 I would have to admit that I never thought that he can be that dream I've been waiting for all my life.  He was just an ordinary guy, just like any other man you can see around.  I never saw something really special about him at first...and my intention of really asking him a very ignorant question is to make him realize that he just posted the most desperate tagline one can ever read.  

But that desperate question really blew me away.  

True enough that it paved way to the most memorable times of my life with this ordinary guy. 

 This guy which I thought is just any other man turned out to be the most special guy one can ever have in her life.  I never had dull conversations with him though at times we argue and we debated... I can still see that he had so much to offer, very sensible, smart, outspoken and yet very courteous.  His passionate love for his job, his people and his family are my most admired qualities of him.  He is persevering and definitely a risk taker not only for choosing me but also trusting his all in the name of love.  

He is the sweetest guy I've ever known, he always has his way to make me feel special and to let me know how much he loves me.  He has this charm and appeal that makes me really fall for him badly.  His eyes are more than the reflection of his kind soul and his ways have never failed to impress me every minute of everyday. 

All these describes only one great man who made my imperfect life complete and simply the best I can imagine.  He is my one and only best right choice... my baby Dinden!  

He is a dream come true for me... He is the one I've been waiting for my whole life through.  

Baby...I know that we have been thinking of a very nice song to describe our love for each other...maybe we have not found it yet but I guess, this song would simply describe how I felt for you and how I look at you as a part of my life.  

 

Another day passes by, I'm dreaming of you,
And though i know it might be just a dream, dreams come true,
Somewhere, somehow I'll find you even though it takes all of
My life
And when i finally do
I know inside my heart

That there could be no doubt, i knew it from the start

You are the one
That I've been searching for my whole life through,
You are the one that I've been looking for
And now that i have found you,
I''ll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms
You are the one

Another night spent alone
I'm lying in the dark

I don't know your name
But i know your voice sings to my heart

A sweet melody, a symphony of love

I know that come one day
I time for you and me

To finally be together, cause i know we're meant to be

Forever's a meaningless word
Even though you're here with me
Here by my side, here in my heart
 

I'll never let you go I'll hold you in my arms

You are the one
That I've been searching for my whole life through,
You are the one that I've been looking for
And now that i have found you,
I''ll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms
You are the one

Cause you are the one, you are the one

As the song says...

"I will never let you go...I'll hold you in my arms.."

Distance placed us apart from each other but I'll make sure that I will never make you feel that we are not together.  I will never get tired reminding you how much you mean to me and how much I love you.   

 I will forever thank and praise God for giving me you as the greatest blessing in my life.

He never ever failed to show me the way to happiness... 

He showed me the way towards you.

Thank you baby for being part of my life. 

 I want to spend my lifetime loving you and taking care of you.

Coz there is one thing I am sure of....  

You are the one baby!!! 

You are my prince, my forever and my happy ending!

Another chance in fate!

we are always given the chance to make things happen for us... no matter how many times we are challenged in life... the number of times we should stand and decide to try again should be more than the number of times we failed. 

i am not sure right now if i will fail once more...

can somebody just give me a sign that i'm making the right decision?

i'm really afraid to make my heart be open to love again... but time and again I guess it will be the only way for me to move on and face another chance of fate.

"Life is short. So don't hold back. Forgive like you have amnesia. Believe like a kid. Love like crazy. And never regret anything that made you happy."

How do you know it's over???

There's no exact answer to this question, but I guess it will only be over if you have decided it is.  Staying in love is a decision that you have to make.  Just like any ordinary day when you decide the type of emotion you wanted to wear the whole day... you also have to decide if you want to wake up and stay the whole day still in love with the person you are with.  If you then decide to stop working things out... the only way to make it at least easier for both of you is to not prolong the agony!

If you want things differently, do not make your partner believe otherwise.  "There's no easy way to break somebody's heart"  ... as the songs says! It's really true that there is no easy way to break up with someone.  Pain is always there but despite the pain respect should still be granted.  Respect to make things less painful and desperate.  Respect to make that person still believe in the magic of love and eventually still be able to love again despite the pain you have caused her. 

It should be now or never!!!

What is your favorite color?

PERSONALITIES BASED ON YOUR FAVORITE COLOR!

Red
What it represents: Ah, the color of passion, anger and high blood pressure. Red is a primal color. It represents primal urges, like lust (“I must have you now!”) and fury (you know the phrase “seeing red,” right?). Yes, red is a commanding color: think of how stop signs get you to halt in your tracks and how you stand back when a red fire engine goes whizzing by.


Understanding people who love it: They act — sometimes without thinking — on immediate desires. In fact, they’re usually the poster children for immediate gratification. It’s up to you if you go for it... or proceed with caution.

Orange
What it represents: OK, orange is not exactly the easiest color to wear and it’s not the most common favorite color, but guess what? Orange is as sensual as it gets. Orange is a mellowed red — and it takes primal, lusty urges and mellows them with a softer vibe. Orange is the color of early attractions, emotional responses, and inner magnetism. Oh, and one other thing: orange is also close to gold, the color of success and wealth.

Understanding people who love it: Someone who likes orange is alive with feelings, the ability to nurture, and can intuit a path to success. If your favorite color is orange, you don’t have an “off” switch when it comes to passion. This is all good stuff, but there’s nothing casual about the connections this kind of person usually forges.

Yellow
What it represents: Yellow is the color of the sun, vitality, power and ego... but it’s not a great indicator of romance. Watch out for self-centered, “me first” energy when someone prefers yellow to the rest of the rainbow.

Understanding people who love it: If yellow is your favorite color, temper your use of the word “I” when you’re interested in someone else. You can come across as too ego-centric otherwise. Now, if you’re dating someone whose favorite hue is yellow, make sure to jump in and share stories about yourself, since this person may not give you much room.

Green
What it represents: Here is the heart of the matter: green is the color of love. (It’s no coincidence that we make our money in the same color...) Green is the color of life and abundance — leaves, grass, plants — it’s all about growing, expanding, and living. So why don’t we give ferns instead of roses on Valentine’s Day? Because green is about expansive, humanistic love and acceptance, not bodice-ripping romance. What’s more, green is a nice-person color, a “do-gooder, be-gooder” kind of color. This person has a warm heart. Passion is probably in there somewhere, buried under their integrity and honor.

Understanding people who love it: If you love green, you put the greater good before your own good — but try a little selfish behavior once in a while.

Blue
What it represents: Blue is a color of clarity, communications and charm. And regardless of the shade, this hue says: “I like to be understood.” On the downside, under stress, a “blue” person can send mixed messages, have trouble making up their mind, or just space out during conversations.

Understanding people who love it: If blue is your favorite color, you never run out of anything to say — expression is your strong suit. And if you’re dating a “blue” person? The same holds true; you should always know where you stand.

Purple
What it represents: Purple evokes the energy of illusion, imagination and fantasy. Or should we say purrrrple? Purple tends to inspire coyness, romance, flirtation and teasing — it builds anticipation with a dash of playfulness. The downside of purple is unrealistic expectations. Is it easier to live in your fantasy world than the real world? Some purple-lovers prefer it.

Understanding people who love it: If you love purple, you can be an imaginative romantic or prefer imaginary romance, depending on how you feel.

White
What it represents: White is light — the combination of all colors. White symbolizes purity (the traditional bridal dress, the christening gown) and spirituality. There’s a simplicity to it, too.

Understanding people who love it: People who love white are probably clean and orderly. While white isn’t the sexiest color, it is certainly healthy.

Black
What it represents: Like white, black is a combination of all colors, but instead of purity, it represents the unknown, the unseen — mystery. Black basically holds back information... but there’s no denying that it has strong associations in our culture with “the dark side” and evil.

Understanding people who love it: If your favorite color is black, you are more hush-hush than high-strung in nature. The silence of this color lets others fill in the blanks. Black says, “I’m not telling you anything.” People who love black can be tough nuts to crack, but quite possibly worth the effort.

Consequences!

My feelings and emotions drive me to make my everyday decisions... This is me!Though this is not what I wanted to be me!

I met a guy who at first I thought would just be my best friend! It started with just a yes click and a match me and we ended up to be friends.  I was upset then by the so many uncontrollable things happening in my life and it seems everything is not just falling into place.  He gave me a couple of advices to keep me running and we just exchanged unending messages till we realized we're starting to fall for each other.  An unbelievable day which I thought would just end right there and then.  But those days were followed by non-stop messages and phone calls.... sounding smiles and laughter every time we hear each other's voice.  My world stops every time I receive a message from him and my heart beats really fast when I hear his voice.  It's amazing how he always make my day right and easy.  My life for that moment is just because of him.

Everyday seems to unfold a different story every time i think about the CONSEQUENCES of all these.  Yes, things are a bit complicated and everyday is always a challenge.  Everything seems to get more difficult every time we love each other more... everyday is a pot of tears every time I think of the times he's not with me... everyday is hell every time I can't be with him and everyday is lifeless without him.  All these I know is the consequence of what I have chosen to do.  A choice that I never thought would put me into so much pain and distress. 

Believe me... pain is useless every time I hear him say how much he wants to take care of me and love me. His words are just soothing to my ears and it makes me want to try more... it makes me wanna bear the pain more... all because I love him so much and the love is just incomparable with the pain I feel within. 

But how much time would I still need, to bear the consequences of being just the second best??? How much more would I need to bear to make things right! 

Shall the CONSEQUENCES persist???

I thought it's you!!!

I built my dreams wih you and made you my whole world! I thought happiness will never end but what is lasting is the pain... until now I'm still hurting and i never realized that things would hurt this much! You are the last person I thought would never want to see me cry but you're the first person who enjoys seeing me this sad. 

I hope this will help me be stronger than ever... the more pain I feel the better person i become! I don't want to force myself anymore... all i asked is to be happy but it's the biggest wish that I guess will be the hardest to achieve!

Long and Lasting Love

A Long and Lasting Love

A long and lasting love
Not many people find it
But those who do
Their whole life through
Put their heart and soul behind it
A long and lasting love

A long and lasting love
Is what I always dreamed of
And when I look into your eyes
I knew I'd really seen love
A long and lasting love

Now that you're in my life
I'm gonna make you stay
I have to be some kind of crazy fool
To let you get away
Now that you're in my life
I'm gonna make you stay
I have to be some kind of crazy fool
To let you get away

A long and lasting love
We share for many reasons
A special bond that goes beyond
The changing of the seasons
A long and lasting love

A long and lasting love
Someone I can care for
Someone to be there
For the rest of my life
A long and lasting love
 

This is one of the timeless songs I always adore.  All of us are dreaming to have a long and lasting love.  A love that is immeasurable and endless.  Not all people are able to find one, not even experience it once.  As I start to ponder, I realized that there is no such thing as a long and lasting love.  As we mature in a relationship, love is just a factor that stays at one corner of our hearts but what stays lasting is the passion for companionship and trust that is built out of the love you have shared for many years.  As we grow old the passion in love will not anymore exist... no such thing as keeping the fire burning.  There are changes...a lot of changes which will lead to a different path and role to take for each one.  

For the past days... a lot of things happened in my life.  From all these, one thing very important came to my mind.  That is how important life is! We can never know how long we are staying in this world.  Tomorrow might not be another day for you but if you are able to make the most of your life and you are able to leave a footprint in the hearts of those people who are important to you... you don't have to worry! Because at the end of the day the lasting love will mark your existence to the hearts of the people u touched.  

Everyday is a matter of choice and today I made a choice to be happy and make the most of everything I have. To say I love you to the most important people who have completed my existence and leave a long and lasting love, joy, trust and patience that will surely mark my endless existence.  

As far as I know, I have served my life to the fullest! And even if today will be the last day of my life, the day when I have to close my eyes and say hello to to the unending light of grace, I will surely face our Creator with a long and lasting love i have received from the people I have shared my life with! 

To all of you, I love you! To my angel and my bhe I love both of you! And forever I will! And if i have one wish, i will ask for more years of happiness being with both of you!  I WISH I COULD SPEND MORE LASTING LOVE WITH YOU!

IT'S YOU!!!

We always say these words every time we meet a person we thought will be our lifetime partner...I would have to admit that I have mentioned this several times already....not because I'm afraid I may not have enough time to look for a partner but because I always wanted my guy to be the last and hopefully be my lifetime partner. 

It's been a while since I last visited my blogs...only because I was really down and hurt the past few months! I was so in love then.... madly, deeply in love with him! I thought he's gonna be my lyf forever.  but i guess it would just remain a thought! A thought that will vanish and will never be remembered.  It was really hard to accept that there are people in this world who does not know how to value and appreciate goodness! I was left by my so called lyf just because he thought he is so much less for me and I'm so perfect to be with her.  A reason beyond compare.... a reason which is incomparable and yet unacceptable.  I was left alone...all alone!

I was alone not until the time he said hi!  I never thought he would change my world at a snap of a finger.  I know things don't change overnight, but this one is different.  It seems magic! He is heaven sent! We had a few exchange of messages...telling stories of our past and trying to find comfort with each other.  He is a very good listener and a perfect a gentleman.  He knows when to say yes and no... he knows how to make me smile and what would make me happy. We stayed in front of our computers for more than 8 hours...with all the stories, sorrows and laughter.  Eventually we came to a point that  WE ALREADY LIKED EACH OTHER...but we have to live for the fact that we are separated by distance and this becomes a dilemma for the both of us.  But then...after a while ...just like magic... it did not hinder us to become closer and more in love.  We both know how to please each other...how to make each other feel better and most of all we know that each of us is our own happiness and that the presence of one in our hearts would be enough to put a smile on our face every time we start and end the day. 

I love him for being so sweet and extra caring...for being so understanding and lovable but most of all i love him for all his flaws and imperfections.  No matter what face i see... what matters is his heart that fills my heart with gladness.  His radiant goodness speaks much of him as a person and as a partner. 

Things are not easy as it seems...i know there will be more challenges along the way which we both have to face.  But no matter how big it is... i know we can make it.  Together we will cross the finish line and continue to love and care for each other. 

Thank you bhe... thank you for saving me in sorrow and accepting me the way I am and what I have.  You deserve to be happy and i will make sure I'll be an instrument of that happiness! I love you with all my heart.   IT'S YOU NOW AND HOPEFULLY FOREVER!

Confessions of the real me!

Confession No. 1 : SELOSA
              To be honest...I am the no. 1 carrier of the word "SELOS" .

Confession No. 2: I HATE BEING CLINGY
              I'm an independent person..maybe that's also the reason why i hate guys who are clingy! just do your    thing! Never put your world around your partner! In the first place she's never your world but just a part of it!

I will feel this way!

How would you feel if you see your "boo" leaving lots of messages for everybody in fb except you? How would you feel if you waited for him for 4 hours from 10 PM to 2 AM just to talk to him but he was never on line in YM? Because all the while he's in fb giving messages to everyone except you! Pathetic right! A total waste of time! No need to wait... no need to spend waking hours every night! A totally stupid move!!! CRAP! I felt that way!

alone...

Have u ever felt so alone and so lonely??? every time i feel this thingy.. i just wanna burst my tears out! Besides, that's all i can do...nothing else but just cry! I have always been there for everyone but no one has been with me even in my most needed time. 

Nakakasawa din na palagi na lang ikaw ang nagmamahal, nag-aalaga, at nagbibigay.  This has been my role ever since.  After a while, I've realized that I have to put a stop on this and start thinking of myself just for once.  I told myself.."Gusto ko ako naman ang mahalin at alagaan...sana ako naman ang bigyan!" I promised myself that things won't be the same again.  But no matter what I do I still end up loving more and giving more.  Kaya nga ba sa huli ako pa din ang umiiyak coz I'm being used to their advantage.  USERS ARE USERS... they take advantage of every inch...every detail.  Ako naman, I let them take advantage of me! Kasi akala ko by giving them so much love and attention...I can turn them to angels.  But the thing is...nothing is possible for deadly devil users! 

With all these, the end starts with the move to WATCH OUT! 

Don't give much but give enough!

Maybe it's really you!

It's been a long search! so many trials and no ending maybes!But I guess it should end here...i found you and nothing should I ask for anymore! The only question is that...would you feel the same way? 

No matter what would be your answer, it is still me who would decide in the end... if it's you or not!  for now, I want to be positive and hopefully it's really you! All i want is for you to be my lyf forever!

When can I say ur mine?

Can somebody just tell me when can i say that the one i love is mine?  i have tried asking that so many times to so many people but no one was able to answer me so sure enough for me to be convinced of what they said.  But after a while, I also answered my own question. 

The truth is... it will never happen.... No matter how long or valuable u have been in your relationship u can never have him and tell that he's yours and the other way around!Simply because no one actually becomes a property of the other when u become committed as partners.  You both have your own personal space to consider... privacy to respect and and own personality to defend.  When you are in a relationship one should learn to be independent of his/her partner and at the same time be dependent in the relationship at one point or another. 

Just make sure that you don't loose yourself and identity as you enter in a relationship. Each of you should grow as individuals and as partners.  You are never a property of your partner and never will happen that he/she will be yours...

When to reveal the true you?

We always have the side of us which we hide from the people we meet,,, people who we think are not trustworthy enough to know the true you. But come to think of it,,, you yourself have a lot of apprehension and doubts to reveal yourself to them simply because we are afraid that we might get rejected.  We show them the likeable side and we give them what we just wanted them to know.  The not so good thing about it is that when we start to love that person more than we expected, we could not go out of our shells and show the real person behind that facade.  The big question comes in... when is the right time to reveal the true you?

The right time is always the first time.... the first time you met the person... the first time you talk...the first time you like the person... the first time you feel there's more than liking him.  Revealing the true you is not an easy thing and it should go on stages.  Every time things are getting tougher, harder and complicated, the more you need to show your soul deeper and deeper.  This would also mean accepting the reality that as you expose your soul the greater the possibility that you become unlikeable.  But it would be a test of true friendship, love and acceptance.  People who will accept you more than the stains in your soul and the scars of the past are the ones worthy of the true you!

no hits!

it's really hard to think that someone has fallen for you but when you start falling for that person he'll just disappear as if nothing happened! You just thought you miss each other but it' s only you who is actually missing him! NO HITS AT ALL! It's really hard to assume....to say that this is mine..without you actually holding it...to say he's the one, when he's not actually saying he is! Be sure its a HIT not just him hitting on you!

sorrow...

A lot of times we are faced with so many challenges... and most of the time we fail to surpass all these challenges! We make our own choices but not necessarily these are the right ones.  In my case... i make my choices everyday, every hour, every minute in all the challenges i face in my life! But even if  i think about that choice a hundred folds... i still end up failing!